Monday, August 24, 2015
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Gaslighting, hooker shoes and Bill Cosby
Camille Cosby says, " that all of Bill accusers consented to sex." This line could have been said by hooker shoes. "Cowards girlfriends are all liars, he treated them well, he never beat them, lied, gave STD's and so, on and so forth."
I know Hooker Shoes would like to blame us for everything, because then she wouldn't have to accept she married a man who wanted to have sex with her oldest daughter. Or that he wanted to have sex with a 13 year when he was in his 30's, or had sex with minors before she met him. It's called Gaslighting, hooker shoes it's what you do every day of your life with him. He's 50 now, you're older than him; don't think for a moment he's gotten those desires out of his mind, they're still there you're just scary as shit that's all. Maybe he hasn't acted on them, maybe he has?
I did the gaslighting myself for years. I made excuse's to myself, to others for his behavior. This is why I was friendly with him, I was trying to come to terms as to what had happened.
Gaslighting definition
https://medium.com/@sheaemmafett/10-things-i-wish-i-d-known-about-gaslighting-22234cb5e407
Thursday, April 16, 2015
The truth is ever present; it sits on your chest, like a pig in hookershoes
Today I was at the mall returning some things, and doing some shopping as well. I stopped into the Body Shop to pick up my husbands favorite body washes. As I was putting everything in my bag, ( I carry my own bag around the mall to shave from the useless bags they put my stuff in) the cashier noted that they collect change to donate to WEAVE, a local non profit whose
mission is to bring an end to domestic violence and sexual assault in partnership with our community.
Last year my husband participated and came in 4th out of 600! He ran in high healed shoes-- a mile, to show solidarity to survivors and victims of sex assault and D.V. He is participating this year as well.
I had a whole .35 in change so instead I threw in all the paper money I had, which was $17 dollars. I still have a hard time not getting choked up, the memories of those times still live inside of me. I can go months without coward entering my mind, the things he's done or said and sometimes all it takes is a scent, a phrase, a movie, something that triggers those dark times and I'm sucked back in. The other day is was a note sent to me by his first ex-girlfriend about our daughter, the one hooker shoes tried to convince him wasn't his. It caught me off guard the ex, reaching out, but it's not the first time she's left me email or comments, and I've said as much to the judge that his other two ex's collaborated the stories of D.V. Coward can try to pretend that it never happened, that he never did any of those things. That he didn't force his first girlfriend in circa 1985 to have an abortion, and then we buried a daughter three years later. The truth has a way of coming out, in the most interesting ways; mostly when you least expect it to.
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