The other day I got caught up on the DVR and watched SVU one of my favorite shows. This one hit entirely too close to home. I‘m sure it was directed at the singer Rihanna and her boyfriend Chris Brown; as It was about domestic violence. In 2009 Rihanna was beat up by Chris Brown, before the Grammy award show. It was documented all over the media, and she broke up with him. Recently she rekindled her relationship with him, hence the nod towards them both with this episode. In the episode after the faux Rihanna is beat up by her boyfriend, she is angry at first but like so many victims, forgives him, and takes him back. The character is 19, young and naive and she thinks he’s changed his abusive ways. She of course thinks she's really in love with him, and doesn't see anything because her emotions are clouded. Sadly she finds out just how right the D.A whom wanted to press charges, was, because she. the faux Rihanna ends up dead.
I obviously am alive therefore not entirely like the episode, but there are victims of Coward, two babies who are not alive because of him. I was so upset after watching this, that I couldn't fall asleep that night. I tossed and turned and no amount of holding from my husband or trying to talk it out was helping. I just was so angry at my once upon a time, 19 year old self for staying with that asshole. I hate when I play that woulda, coulda, shoulda, game in my head. I beat myself up because I tried to be friends with him, to even possibly get back together with him. GAH, I was freak’n insane! Ok, not insane but clearly not thinking things through. I know that I was doing what many victims have and will do, but when it’s my own self that has acted out in this matter it’s different.
I obviously am alive therefore not entirely like the episode, but there are victims of Coward, two babies who are not alive because of him. I was so upset after watching this, that I couldn't fall asleep that night. I tossed and turned and no amount of holding from my husband or trying to talk it out was helping. I just was so angry at my once upon a time, 19 year old self for staying with that asshole. I hate when I play that woulda, coulda, shoulda, game in my head. I beat myself up because I tried to be friends with him, to even possibly get back together with him. GAH, I was freak’n insane! Ok, not insane but clearly not thinking things through. I know that I was doing what many victims have and will do, but when it’s my own self that has acted out in this matter it’s different.
I want to say I’m saddened, and joyful at the same time that I have been contacted by many of his ex’s. I know that I am not alone, and that we all have been hurt by him. I wish I could guarantee that it would never happen to another person. I want to find a way to put a stop to this monster, legally of course. I’m not suggesting violence, rather by legal means. I will ask that if you know anyone that knows him, send them the link to this page, so that we can all be sure to share the truth about Coward.
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